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My heart and soul as a driven "career woman" - learning to stand back from spirit.


My lovely relatives in England kindly reminded me that it would be nice if they could read my blog as well. :) Therefore this post and some future posts will be in English. I do not trust Google translate and must translate the posts myself. I simply have not found the time to create two sites in this blog, one for English and one for Swedish. Also, whilst I am good at digital law, I am not a tech wizard, so everything takes longer for me when I am trying to work Wix site builder out. Please bear with me!



My heart tells me that my true calling is to help others to connect with: (1) their own inner guru; and (2) their loved ones on the "other side". This has always been my prime purpose. Only now, I am ready to also step up and own it. I love being a lawyer in the midst of my career. Love the feeling of opening up a law book, burn a candle, sip my freshly brewed coffee and argue legal points. All my life I thought that I must choose between having a legal career or being a medium. Of course, I know now that the belief was driven by fear of being questioned and ridiculed. I do understand other people´s views on this and if one has not felt and experienced the loving link with a soul who has passed over, it is more difficult to accept such reality. I respect that and for many years I was myself a sceptic until it happened to me.

I have had the fortune of having messages relayed to me from other practising and training mediums. People who have never met me could tell me about relatives (who had passed over) I hardly knew myself. In fact, I had to verify the information with my own parents and relatives before I knew that it was true. Connecting with a spirit as a training medium is both exciting and disappointing sometimes. As, we have been taught, if one is not in balance, one should cancel a session, no matter how disappointing that may be.



At the medium course last weekend (Camilla Elfving-Elfving Institute), the loved ones placed themselves near the person they had a message for. They patiently waited until it was my turn to stand in front of everyone. I clearly "saw" them before my inner eye. They relayed pictures and instilled their personalities on me plus gave messages in evidence of who they were. Messages about their past plus proof that they were still around from time to time. It was lovely and emotional at times. New is that I was given the first letter of the name for someone they knew and for who they wanted to pass on a greeting.

I also received wonderful messages from the other training mediums from my loved ones who have passed over. I did not know the other participants and they did not know me. Only one person on the course knew me from the previous course with Camilla Elfving (my supervising Medium-teacher).



Now, here comes the lesson to be learnt for a driven career woman like myself, who have ambition as my leading star. I want to advance fast and NOW. It is a double edged sword really. On the one hand, it gives me the strength to learn fast. On the other hand, it exhausts me and puts me in danger of ignoring my own body, mind and soul. So, why should it be different when training to be a medium? It is not. In fact, the biggest lesson I have learnt so far on this journey is that it is even more important to be in balance when seeking to connect with a spirit. In a circle during the week, I knew that I was exhausted but still wanted to push myself. The link that came in from a woman felt weak with many messages being relayed but my mind, that is my physical mind, coul


d not interpret the pictures well. Nobody in the group recognised the woman clearly and I had to let go. Total disappintment for me at first as it felt wrong that the spirit was not identified or "claimed". I kind of felt sorry for her and for myself for not being "good enough."

AND.... that is when the wonderful lesson of life dawned on me (epiphany moment) . (Finally!, one could argue....) Lesson learnt: I am an instrument for universe and for spirit world in these sessions but to do this I must first listen to my own heart and soul. This is not a "career" but a calling. I must love myself and to love myself means to look after myself above all. It lead me to reflect on the intense working hours I had engaged in during the preceding weeks. I was simply out of balance and on top of that I wanted to hold a one-to-one session later in the week, despite my exhaustion. When I at last realised that valuable lesson, I cancelled the session. Immediately. One must never attempt spirit contact unless one is in full balance. The link may be good and true but if things do not go as "planned", it may come with a range of disappointing feelings that have nothing to do with the link you have just had. Only because one is imbalanced. So this weekend, this training medium is engaging in self-love and quiet resting. Not much contact with other souls but my family, pets and the forest souls :). (For the record, writing this post, has been a resting experience. :)

They say you cannot teach an old dog new tricks. They are wrong. You can.



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